I just realized I will be turning the big 25 in a little over 2 months. I certainly do not want to look or feel like I do now, at age 25. I’m taking back control of my weight and my fitness. This is CRUNCH TIME… literally. I’d like to wear a dress, and I’d like to feel good on my birthday. So that’s that. I need to put in the work. First… I’m reflecting on it, and that’s this post. After I hit publish… Mission 25 & Killer Thighs is underway!
Here’s an exercise to try.
I did it last night, and I hope it sticks…
Get the photo of you from one of the last times you remember being comfortable with your weight. Get a photo that inspires you, that shows your body in a healthier state. Is it recent? Even better. — Write something on it. Tell yourself something. Be short and sweet. Make a point. Try to inspire yourself.
I chose a photo from 2009, one of my first real art shows, a great night, lots of excitement and romance. One of the last times in my mind I felt truly confident. It was during a time period when I never thought too much about how I looked in what I was wearing. (that seems so foreign…) I just got dressed in cute clothes. And I like this picture of me working the counter. My boyfriend took the shot… I want to be her again.
Now chose another photo (mine was from the same night… great photography from Ella Schreck). Have this photo show one part of your body that you want back so bad. For me it is the look of my face. I can’t believe it when I see older photos of me, and my face looks so different. Below is a photo of me from a wedding about a month ago. I had goals to be thinner by then and I did not reach them 😦 Needless to say, I was the farthest from comfortable that night. I was looking forward to getting nice photos of my boyfriend and I this night, and that middle photo made me feel so sad. I did not post this on Facebook like I wanted to. I am ashamed and disgusted by it… but I somehow feel deep inside, that exposing this to you will force me to do something about it. If I want this face back, I got to put in the work.
And here’s something I saw when I went on Pinterest just now…
I get why for some these types of “thinspo” images help to motivate. I love this quote! But I don’t really look at stuff like this. I think it’s important to know what you want in YOUR body. This exercise will help. I know who I was and what Im capable of looking like and feeling. I want to take control of my health by staying focused on me.
Wish me luck… I’m getting my face back!
2 really easy things I’m going to do starting tomorrow:
•Make a conscious effort to drink way more water
•Take at least two walks (twice around the building/block) a day
2 things I’m not going to do:
•Make unrealistic, unreachable goals or benchmarks for myself
•Compare my fitness techniques and weight-loss journey to others’