My Weight Loss Journey Step 3: The Purchase

Mission 25 & Killer Thighs has been progressing quite nicely. Here are the things I’ve been doing as part of this “induction phase” …the small stuff before the tough really gets going!

– Began drinking only water (+ one cup of coffee on weekdays)
– Stopped eating entire portions / Started putting down the spoon before I even feel full)
– Started parking farther and purposely making extra trips up and down stairs
– Began waking up earlier
– Stopped sugar consumption almost completely (still get it from things like Greek yogurt).
– Stopped drinking alcohol

I will be adding more, obviously. I’ve just learned over the years you can’t change everything at once. It’s a lot of stopping bad habits and starting small steps – hopefully it becomes easier, and second nature. They should be gradual enough baby steps that they naturally become part of a greater lifestyle change.

So yes, progress is made. I exposed myself publicly and got the photo, I created lists of things I would wear if I were thinner, and now… I’m on step 3, the purchase. All my life I’ve struggled with my weight and for years have kept old things that used to fit in “because I will fit back into it one day” or bought things a couple sizes down to “inspire myself to fit into this by the end of summer.”

Now this has never really successfully worked. In fact, I still have drawers full of old clothes I’m hoping to squeeze back into, and a closet full of clothes with tags. I feel pathetic for this, been wanting to clean it out. Aren’t I going to want to go shopping when I lose all this weight? It’s true, that’s what you want to do. But this is part of another initiative I’m taking with myself… living a less cluttered life. I don’t want to hold onto things and fill my house with things I don’t use….EVEN IF, I plan to use them one day. If I want it then, I should buy it then…

But alas! I’m doing this exercise again (I must be insane). Again, can’t change everything at once. I just wanted to have a fancier, really nice outfit I could wear on a date with my man. I want to stun him (because I never really dress up for him). And so this purchase is the ONE purchase I am making. But to be more realistic I did not size down so drastically like usual. The dress I chose fits for the most part, it just doesn’t zip all the way. There’s my goal, get it zipped up! I can’t be picky and see it September, disappointed in how I look, “my hips look huge in this still”, “gosh I still need to cover my arms.” That won’t be the case! My goal is to simply fit in it, to get it zipped up. Now if I fail at that… I’m really not trying. 

Here it is… the Ann Taylor’s Kaleidoscope Maxi Dress …even more beautiful in person!
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Totally me. My plan is to rock this hard on my 25th with my boo on my arm and damn proud!

Till then!

Mission “25 and Killer Thighs” Step 1: THE Photo (The Start of my Weight-Loss Journey)

I just realized I will be turning the big 25 in a little over 2 months. I certainly do not want to look or feel like I do now, at age 25. I’m taking back control of my weight and my fitness. This is CRUNCH TIME… literally. I’d like to wear a dress, and I’d like to feel good on my birthday. So that’s that. I need to put in the work. First… I’m reflecting on it, and that’s this post. After I hit publish… Mission 25 & Killer Thighs is underway!

Here’s an exercise to try.
I did it last night, and I hope it sticks…

Get the photo of you from one of the last times you remember being comfortable with your weight. Get a photo that inspires you, that shows your body in a healthier state.  Is it recent? Even better.  — Write something on it. Tell yourself something. Be short and sweet. Make a point. Try to inspire yourself.

I chose a photo from 2009, one of my first real art shows, a great night, lots of excitement and romance. One of the last times in my mind I felt truly confident. It was during a time period when I never thought too much about how I looked in what I was wearing. (that seems so foreign…) I just got dressed in cute clothes. And I like this picture of me working the counter. My boyfriend took the shot… I want to be her again.

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Now chose another photo (mine was from the same night… great photography from Ella Schreck). Have this photo show one part of your body that you want back so bad. For me it is the look of my face. I can’t believe it when I see older photos of me, and my face looks so different. Below is a photo of me from a wedding about a month ago. I had goals to be thinner by then and I did not reach them 😦 Needless to say, I was the farthest from comfortable that night. I was looking forward to getting nice photos of my boyfriend and I this night, and that middle photo made me feel so sad. I did not post this on Facebook like I wanted to. I am ashamed and disgusted by it… but I somehow feel deep inside, that exposing this to you will force me to do something about it. If I want this face back, I got to put in the work.

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And here’s something I saw when I went on Pinterest just now…

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I get why for some these types of “thinspo” images help to motivate. I love this quote! But I don’t really look at stuff like this. I think it’s important to know what you want in YOUR body. This exercise will help. I know who I was and what Im capable of looking like and feeling. I want to take control of my health by staying focused on me.

Wish me luck… I’m getting my face back!

2 really easy things I’m going to do starting tomorrow:
•Make a conscious effort to drink way more water
•Take at least two walks (twice around the building/block) a day

2 things I’m not going to do:
•Make unrealistic, unreachable goals or benchmarks for myself
•Compare my fitness techniques and weight-loss journey to others’